sink it

yeap, i've made it clear

we need to talk. No, i need to talk. i have to say what i feel.
shouldn't be wasting time on me. 
it's not like i'm insecure, it's because i'm too sure that my life will surprise you and it is not a good thing
i thought that working hard to be as good as you will make me mature enough to think like you do
but the truth is, i don't wanna be like you, i cannot who i am and what makes me who i am

i'm sorry.

2015

Hello.

It's going to be a rough beginning. I'm going to write something everyday to keep up, a habit i think. It's 10.15pm, I should go bath or look through the league table to find 4 university which can (i wish) to offer me for LLB. YEA IT'S A FREAKIN LAW DEGREE. 

But I'm here typing my very first post. I shouldn't start a sentence with but but who cares. Listening to Katy Perry's Dark Horse, It's been replaying for a few days. Being aware and prepare to click on the minimise button before I know my parents will break into my room. ridiculous. 

It's a brand new start, which I will always tell myself because I need to be a better person. sucks. It's jumping-off-a-cliff feeling i got here, don't know where to land, or even a place to land. 

Okay, to be honest I just don't know what to write, keep pressing delete key. I shouldn't be confuse or what but I have a dateline. Jan 15th, I should be handing in my choice of university with complete personal documents, which is my currently the biggest problem. 

Second, I have serious problem with my relationships. They are all sinking. I am so not a keep-in-touch type of people. I care too much and I care not at all. I have strong feelings but they just fade away. I should go to bath. I hate whatsapp last seen status. You've made that private. 

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